silient mode

A game start , there is win or lose ..
The winner will win all the proud .. n loser lost their confidient
but whatever happen . it is just a match ..
a match losing, but still have a day to win back

but if your mood spoil , bad mood , angry etc etc , i will understand .. my way , in not teasing you .. im asking you finish the match only come n tok with me , coz i adi know the game is losing d.. i'm not meant to make u more angry .. but i never got it , u will angry at me this time ...
i can feel your angry n dissapointed . i want to concern u . to presuade you , but my return is like scolding me .. my heart so pain . first time .. because of this , u scold me ..
i tot u say that .. even ur not in ur mood . u wont tok to me like this..


im sorry

grey in colour

Today , i'm so blur , did so much blur things . i cant imagine why im doing this.. talk to customer , but not paying attention .. chit chat with coll , but im not pay attention too .
- moody
-blur
-groomy
-tired
-sad
-pain
-bad mood

ALL HAPPEN IN ONE SHOT .. this is what i really hate to happen in my life.. i hate moody , i hate bad mood.. it make me whole day feel like wanna cry, but no ones know my feeling .. i cant tell anyone , n no one can really listen to me . so i keep all in my heart .. my shadow crying ...
my heart crying , feel like i gonna lost some important thing..
i'm really try my best to far away from negetive issues , but i cant stop my mind of this .

Who can really understand what i want if i never say ? .......... but i never ...... say

My love handbook

This is Rachel Keng n Soo Wei Ming first year anniversary le.. happy boh? so fast ONE year d.. hmmm.. i think i have so start from we know each other ... At the first sight , we are under introduce by L C Tan .. by that time , they not expect we will in a relationship . :D so surprise we know from Mois , Penang .. a lot people comment that ? u know each other in Mois , does it is a bad image or bad impression . but i just feel that this guy is nice to be friend.. if be a boyfriend , i still put the ???? end up , i fall in love with him , but i do not know that how he feel on me ? maybe this is a fate. when the last day he in Penang. he hug me very very tight , n on that night after party , he send me home , n ask for goodbye kiss, n i just give him a goodbye kiss .. after that , i was surprise what did i do just now? it's show that i fall on him d.. omg.. better he is stupid he do not know fall on him d, unless he love me too.. But the days he in UK , he MSN me daily , always like to kacau me , but when he got not to chat with me , he gonna miss me . on that time i was guessing ? izit he feel that too ??? hehehe ... we are close to each other months after . on this day , he just show that he care n love me , so happy n surprise ,finally he admit that . but we are long distance relationship .in our love part , we are on cam n thru msn to connect our love note . So , this is part of our love story .. :D The half year we build our love story , he coming back this july . very exicted n happy finally my darling balik d. during the 3 months period , i try my best to spend my time with him as much as i can . the first month he back , we went to BALI . we spent 4days 3 night romantic holidays at there , n we mark down our first dating location was romantic n memorable . That not a wrong choice if u choose travel in bali with your love one.. back from bali , i was sick somemore . maybe i cant get use to it with bali food or what else .. n make him so panic , can see he really concern me. The second month , we both went to KL . heheh KL , shopping la , what to do ?? but in KL our sweet memories happen in Sunway Lagoon .. why ? hmmm .. maybe we enjoy the fun at there , spacially we playing Go-kart n those extreme things.. This last month , we go Genting together with my Mom n Ah Ma.. hehehe over there , the only place we can go is theme park n casino. in casino , both of us not that lucky to win some money d , even the jackpot , impossible d .we seen like boring at nite le , coz i did'nt bring my laptop , so we cant online searching or play game.. all my fault le.. :( but to me, i can together with u everyday , it is enough to me le .. :P

And Now i going to give you some present ,,

slide down .

nothing special . just want to tell you that , i'll be your girl forever n ever n

I LOVE YOU

Forever n ever

Round n round . n you are here, so i drop by in ur daily n memories
From 24th September .8 days d le, my darling back to UK. the first 3 days i really hard to use to it . i tot after send u back , i wet my face for an hour then back to normal d, but out of emotional control ,im gloomy ,moody n sometime think of him , im still few droup pearl, btw the week , i'm so emotion . i try to faster back to normal life . From real heart , i'm use to it everyday see him , hugging , n have meal together , movie , kacau each other , suddenly he leave me again , truth is i really really unwilling to let him go back UK le .. but think properly n clearly , i must think of people future , so i cant spoil people bright future n study opportunity , even im give up myself to stop studying after i failed my ACCA exam , so i cant be so selfish to tied him here..

this darling le , dunno why can make me so crazy with him .. i will do something im not think i can do or i will do in my life . but i did it . n i never expect that everyday we will happy together n arguement no more. but sometime we do argue . my in my deep heart , i was like killing myself fall into deep hole , or heart pain like hell ... but after all .. think back of our sweet memories .. what unhappy stuff all disappear .. can say this darling . i love him very very much le .. im not afraid that after he know this , he will think tat i love him more, so he love me lesser . all condition are depend ourselves , how to handle ? how to solve problems when there is problem? how to know more each other deeply , by sense , or time n things we share..

total 3 months we stay together .. n now our relationship is 11 months d. so fast le .. next mth will be 1 yr le =) n many things happen n memories, i'm still love him ..
no others , i hope to stay with u forever n ever