is my =( =x =/ day

what's going on ? im so speechless . .

black day again . i tot today will be very gud day ,. but ... i was wrong ..
first the politic between the work probs .. i got no idea why this always happen .. why don't co-operate , happie , peace ,strategic work together, bur alwayz argue for little stupid no reason ...
sigh .. i know work is like tat , sure got thg happpen between and we have to find out the probs n solve too ..but not to blame ppl with no reason ,and scold people as u like !

i tot my condition was ok d. try to avoid the firewall . but y im so careless .. ??? im try so hard to count me out from the war.. but again , !!, fine im sorry , my false , i should'nt like this !! but y .. ? still have to show the angryness after my apologzise ? so curious ?? WHAT'S UR PROBLEMS ?

seriously im damn stress when i wake up every morning , n prepare go to work and guess what will happen today ? does she ok today ? does the wheater shine ???does everythg will fine and peace today ? no war ? no be syok ...etc .. omg ,.. im so tired bout this case , i try to make my own have a good day , try to be as silly as i can , try to pretend im happy with it ..try to be the peace one ...
but , ........... im so speechless with what had happen recently ..

sigh this few day , im really so stress and unhappy .. even give me the greentea latte, =x !
cause i have another probs wif my family , i try to solve d.. but im so scared , so worry ..
i do concern my family . i do love my family . but i use the wrong way to treat my family ....
i duno y i hav this atitude , im very lazy to explain everythg .. im so hate to tell everyone what im doing ..im so irritate with the question question question ! im so lazy to EXPLAIN !!! haizzz, blame y i have this atitude lah .. but im sorry ,im not meant it to u ! sorry! sorry made u worries .

sorry to those who called me and message me this few day.. i moodless to speak much and replying the message !

okies . im okay !

i been so moody last nite . tot im going mad . going dead !

and sumthg happened with my family member. i know she tried so hard to pretend she fine , she happy . but suddenly her tears really make me feel so sad and shock. actually she's very steady , independent , mature , good looking , protective gal in my mind . so i don't even tot she will so unstable after this happend to her. i tried to presuade her [even im bored with sumthg wif tatz fellow]


there was no secret in my me blog . i been so emo while i saw her cried . she's said she tired wif love . she's suffer for the probs she face . im so hurt when i saw her like this . i try to persuade her , let him go, he isn't ur mr. rite ! u shud show him that ur life without him is still fine n be better !
Rach, ur different with me , im admire u while u facing love probs . u can steady n settle it btw a very short time
*smile* hey sis , infront everyone i will try to hide my sadness . who wont sad when they lost in love , exspecialy him ,im still care bout him.and i been so sad too , but i will only shown in the lonelyness and darker nite . okay, i admit my recoverage from it is faster than i expected but actually i never let J go .

well . i do admire her cinta semangat, she don't care how ppl tink of her, and don't care ppl disagreement and she don't care the guy forced to give up , and she still love him very much . this is wat i cant do if those probs happen . i would choose to give up , no matter how much i love tatz guy . it does'nt mean i ain't serious in love , but since ppl disagree , ppl does'nt like u anymore , then y muz we do the stupid thg and it wont get any good replied .

and i been so emo this few day , cause i really mixed . i lost myself too . by the way, i saw her saddist face . poor ! she can prove how much she love him and brave to face the fact even though no ppl agree at her. at the moment she woke me up , i shud'nt allow him to came and hurt me again . i must tell him

yeah . im glad tatz i settle the sad case .
but her , i hope u found bac urself soon ..

i never expected it happen

well , i do tot i saw my rainbow & sunshine , but y u take away my sunshine ?

the day u leave me ,without a word . without a reason . and u broken my heart n break ur promise . wat can i do ? my heart broken into pieces and my world glow bitter and sour . from tatz day , i swear i won't forgive and accept u if one day u back !

but recently i do have weird senses that u will appear in my life again .seriously ur appearance were confusing me and make me get mad ! u appear again!
i apologise i did so cruel and badly to u . but u can't put blame on me , coz past couple years ago , u did treat me so . u bluff me , u fooled me and threaten me ,forcing my life become down n down . so , so u think tatz is a wrong if u came back and ask me forgive u and goes back together ?

i dun mind to be fren . but i do mind you want me be ur gal again .
is a very stupid thg , and worthless for me to fulfill for you. and since u leave me and i try to ask u stay , but u keep escape from the fact and keep ignore me . but finally i awake from the cruel nightmare and walk out from ur world .

between this few day , i nearly mad coz u keep on disturb my life and irritating .i dunno the reason y u did this ? i dun understand at all y u come back and y u said u r regret to leave me ? is over dear! we have our new life , izit ? so y must backforward?

well .i ain't angry at u , i ain't hate u . but sorry i cant promise u !let me go , please , and stop disturbing me, is enuf !!!

i beg u . please ! please !