omg ........... i hate this

hmmm.. i really dun wish i could remember this all incident happen recently ..
the first thing happen on my own . i tot i could be better if i could be more patient and avoiding some stupid arguement .. unfortunately , im involved.. ! too bad rite ??? im still don't understand why have to be so fake infront the commander , why have to be so timid to voice out your dissagreement ??and im so bored and worry about the condition and the nature .. i really don't wanna it happen again ..so , do i make a right disicion if i stop or if i quit??? actuually i still can't decide.. mayb i have my responsible on my family .. i have to take care my mom and brother .. although some peeps , asked y dun help my mom them at restorant ? lol .. honesty , i hope too , but i prefer work with other people . b'coz i wan to be independent gal , and not to need my mom them help me behind... mayb some people will say that im stupid , crazy ..
but i really dun wish my age i still need my mom give me everything . ..

and the second case, im feel so sorry to heard bout that , my best fren Ezie house was burn yesterday .. omg !! im so worry , so worry bout her .. cause she is very strong gal ..even hard things happen,she can settle by herself .. no nid people to worry bout her .. but this case ,, really gave a really big joke for her!i never heard her sound so down like that u know ? that why im so so so worry bout her .. keep asking how are u ? are u ok ? and call our close fren to concern bout her. but im glad that nobody at home that time ..Thanks god .. !! i tink now she is better d , Ezie , i wishing u all the best wil comes to u soon , and be strong ya .

when it really goes to complicated

其实我都不懂我的决定是对或错. 我也不懂我们到底是什么关系. 复合了 ? 暧昧？　朋友？比好朋友还要好的朋友？　玩具　？你告诉我好吗？我也回答不到我自己... 答案永远都停留在那.....


喜欢?当然我还喜欢你. .. 但你的忽冷忽热真的让我好懊恼.. 或着换句话来说. 我太笨了, 可让你伤了我一次又一次. 有时我宁愿我们不再联络,但是我又舍不得.. 我可以做的是默默的等..
等....... 喜欢你并没有错, 毕竟你还是一样的疼我,只是当我们见面的时候而已, 对我来说, 这并不足够...... 我要的是你完完全全归于我...

Rachel, just wake up from the dreamland.. eventhough it is sweet but it bring bitter n sour too !! he does'nt see you , and he does'nt need you , and he does'nt love you , the way u wish he would , the way u know he could ..

i'm speechless and faded , it's too complicated , is the how the relationship end, nothing but good friend ?

no ppl know ........

bloody bad day again

u know wat ? today i woke up n i feel like dun wanna go work again. coz i dunno wat will happen later . n wat i have to do ..! i lost myself n i refuse to walk in the shop .

i expect tere will happen sumthg , but i dunno tatz is worst than i expect,
i dunno wat happen actually, n i tink i was INNOCENT . i dun wan the thg happen even worst . i try to change everythg . i dun wanna to war., i dun wanna to hate , i dun wanna to argue wif them .. but y they muz did it to me ?

i really confused , y im so blur , n i make a chances to allow her scold me without any reason , cause im not the one who did the mistake , n i so pid to cover for the other (after she scold , im juz realise tatz ) .. then i tahan, i said 'rach , u cant cry infront em .. muz tahan ! be brave' [ jess i need ur help ]..i really cant press my sadness d. i run to toilet n call my bestie jess, n cried to her ..

after that, i feel better , n i back to the shop . i try to smile n chill wif them ..
actually im nth different with outsider , they tok themselves n i juz stand aside n listen to them .. like nobody care bout me ..
ok fine .. i dun care this .. after the closing . thg happen again
wat the fuck . i dun even know wat i had done . that not wat i want ! i dun like any backstep stuff ard me !! is enuf !!!

i cried badly . n jess , vincent . my ex boss , all mytx fren was comfort me.. they care bout me so much n worry bout me,.. im so glad that i hav u all .. thz for concern me so much ..
n my mom , she told me that i shud'nt give up easily , i hav to find out y n kuai lan to them .. i know she got her own thoery la..
but i got no choice . i hav to face it n settle it by myself ..

anyway , jess , vince , ms lim , mr chong , fione , frankie yee por, abby , melvin . thankz for concern n care bout me so much. im ok after i meet up wif all of u ..
thank you so much, im better now

Stressful-ness

im so stress recently , i can feel different after i came back from K L.
the feeling is like u been back-step by someone else , n u hav to act like nth .
n the shop politic problem. i know im the most weak in this shop , most motivate , most very fast to get close with ppl , most likely to listen order n done it . i never attack other ppl .
but now i feel like i been attack . but i cant stop them to attack me..


somtime i feel like i wanna quit . but the terms n conditions was confusing me .. i dunno how to dicide. sometime i feel like wanna back to college life ,is so free n i can choose go or not go to college when im tired or im sick , but it can make any profit . n work, i can earn money n buy my stuff n other payment . but i dun hav freedom, i can go anywere , muz plan very early n muz get approve .. is so hard , i dun hav freedom since im 19..

im so upset , im so stress day by day i work tere , after happen sumthg to me ..